OMG. Soooo I went to the doctor and got me some new meds, We dropped the prozac since i obviously didnt have anxiety.. But not the new meds they gave me dont work etheir! They said my stomach prolly gets irritated when i eat.. So he just gave me some meds, ARE doctors supposed to do that? Like just guess whats wrong with you?

Its soo irritating, Are my doctors the only brainless ones around here?

But to help my sadness ease i found out my mom doesnt mind that i go all the way across the US to visit jillian for a week!! and even though i dont know her etheir.. Jillian is like an awesome person i talk to on the internet! and my mommy said i can go and visit her!!! So awesome.. Cant wait to tell Jillian the awesome news XD

SOo im thinking.. Like What if i dont do requests on Adorable love? and im just the webmiss and Helper designer? -Sigh- I dunno.. I wanna quit adorable love.. pass it to someone i can trust.. but I cant Leave SaMaNtHa Like that.. Thats just.. Mean and horrible.

But.. I can still be the webmiss.. Am i getting good at graphics? Seriously people.. I dont want someone to tell me i am when i really aint.. I guess i can ask Faye since she is awesomely truthful with me XD

Now this whole thing with DBSK is reallllly starting to get to me.. My friend was talking to me about how its really hard to listen to them with out crying to breaking down... And now its hitting me hard.

Like i know its wrong but then i think "What if the rumors of a break up are true" But why the helll should i think that? Thats totally loosing the meaning of Cassiopeia.. I dont want too loose my faith.. and i never will..

People have to think.. Wouldn't you want a break? If you were them.. IF SM did that crap to you? Wouldn't you want some space.. want a break from reality.. From everything else.. and just be a normal person and not feel the weight of millions of fans who are confused with everything going on?

Well.. I think of it like that.. and it doesnt make me so sad.. Because they are normal people.. and Are more hurt then the fans prolly are...